trying to understand my own race

this is quite embarrass to tell but im a malay who cant understand anything about her own race. im proud to be one and yet feel frustrated being one. i was never involve in such social life, but still i observe and learn. now i rather observe and just stare towards the teen now especially on my own race.

i cant no longer absorb anything from this bunch of mad people. a group of teen now days are no longer the same. they are getting more violence and more in active in study. i observe and i felt pity on them because wasting such good future infront just for freedom. a freedom which bring doomed rather then free. i just dont get it.

the one thing i hate about this bunch of people they giving us the one who need life a hard time, people no longer think straight when comes to malay. other race actually look at us like a down graded people and its so frustrating that the other race are not giving us any respect even if we tried very hard! why! all i want to say, please guys dont be what are u now, change! for god sake!

now i heard a lot of story and news about my race now days are proud that they are no longer virgin, they are involve in the bad society and they even proud that they actually drink! for this all i can say is.. since u already start drinking just go and go eat the short 4 legs. since u already doing one big sin why dont just do the second one. sigh! i felt ashamed because my own race now days are imitate the thug. we slammed the american but yet our generation now are doing exactly the same.

now i no longer felt Malaysia as a country which the majority citizen are different especially for my own race, we were suppose to be the race who embrace respect and "sopan santun". seeing is believing, now only several people are actually still hold that principle. he others..well...let them decide.